I spent the last year after graduating college trying to “figure out” my life. What career am I going to have? Where am I going to live? Will I get married or remain single the rest of my life? How am I going to save enough money to do things with my free time?
If only I had more money, more time, more support, more resources, more confidence, more motivation I could do the things I want. I could make a difference in the lives of others. I could see the world and make change happen.
Then the Holy Spirit quieted my heavy thoughts. He asked this question: “When will your life ever be enough to begin the journey I have planned for you?”
If I trusted that Christ died on a cross to save me because he loved me so much, why didn’t I trust him to take care of my day-to-day burdens? Why didn’t I trust the God who performed miraculous deeds with my own life?
It was then I realized I didn’t know who Jesus really was. I wasn’t blown away by all he had done for me. I didn’t long for him like the world did for money or love. I was thirsty for something greater than this world could satisfy.
New York Times Bestselling author, Katie Davis described abundance in Christ this way. “I was coming to understand that what it means to be real is to love and be loved until there is nothing left. And when there’s nothing left, and we feel we’re all in pieces, God begins to make us whole. His love sets us free and transforms us.”
His love is greater. There are no barriers or conditions to his love. I don’t have to prove myself to gain his acceptance.
I’m normally not the type to brag on myself. I don’t like standing up in crowds or giving speeches. But I wanted to share what God has done in my life recently. I wanted to give him the credit because he is great and righteous.
Three weeks ago I got a job offer in Nashville, TN. I was running low on money. I had bills and loans to pay but I trusted in God’s timing. I prayed long and hard for him to provide—sometimes on my hands and knees. His faithfulness never ceases to astonish me.
I don’t have my life “figured out” and I’ll never have it planned to a T. I trust the Lord to make me whole in him. I trust him to guide me in the way that is holy and pleasing to him. I know I don’t have to fear. I don’t have to be afraid. Knowing Christ is an adventure.